I've been thinking about it a lot these days; dreaming, scheming, planning for a way to make it work.
I find myself wondering what would I do, where would I go, what it would be like.
I've always had a short attention span. I need variety, change, challenge, something to hold my interest.
But there's always so much stress in making these types of changes.
A tells me to not be impulsive...it's just a phase. Maybe we just need to get away for a while; a vacation, a different point of view. I need to find the spark again.
No, I'm not talking about my relationship thankfully. I often tell A she is certainly something special to have kept this gemini intersted after all these years (no small feat I must admit). But I am thinking about my career. I'm feeling very blah and negative about my job recently. I really hate that negativity too. I hate feeling it and thinking it. It affects me physically with tension in my neck and back, headaches. I find myself not speaking much because I have nothing good to say.
My mom would say "shit or get off the pot". Hmmm...now the big question is, what do I want to do next?