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Thursday, November 10, 2011

Triggered

I am a stress-induced emotional eater. I almost feel like I should be standing in front of a crowd. "Hello, my name is Mel. I have a stress eating problem". 


Food is comfort and I of course love, love, LOVE carbs-bread is my absolute weakness. I have been doing well the last few months but Monday morning I was triggered. I woke up to sick dogs, a mess in the house, a mess on my bed from a dirty dog butt, no working dryer and 5 dogs that needed baths because they were such a mess. Aghhh!


When things had finally settled down, I innocently opened the freezer to get some ice and spotted it; that box of candy my mom had given us last spring. Trying to be good, I had shoved it in the freezer without opening it and all these months it has sat hidden from view behind bags of veggies. Monday I ripped into it and down the rabbit hole I fell. The carbs/sugars are like crack and I'm the biggest addict. 

Lets see, 2 days home from work, multiple pots of coffee and gone one box of candy, a loaf of bread, frozen cookie dough, potato chips, animal crackers plus an unplanned trip to the grocery store to satisfy my craving for Pop-Tarts and chocolate-cherry ice cream. Now this is in addition to the wonderful cooking and "real" food that A cooks up around here. 


And sadly the holiday season is not truly here yet. I better go make another cup of tea and try to convince myself that I really don't want just one more bowl of ice cream. What am I saying? Fuck the bowl, just eat it straight from the tub.

5 comments:

crystal said...

I hear ya! For me, grad school = an additional 40lbs, all from sugar to dull the pain!

Ice cream out of the tub though, always worth it ;)

Ms. Moon said...

I went to bed last night realizing that today I MUST throw that damn container of frozen yogurt out today. I don't even like frozen yogurt that much!
You're not alone, baby doll.

Mark said...

I don't buy this stuff. Not because I don't like it, it's because I would eat it all in one sitting. I'm a horrible mess!
I need to lose 30lbs. Feel better?
m.

CJ said...

Don't be too hard on yourself. It's tough to pass up the sugary snacks, especially in times of stress. You'll get back on track. Besides, it's good to treat yourself now and again!

Queen of Ruckus said...

Down, down the rabbit hole you must go! Down...down!!! lol

For me it's salty and greasy foods. I love candy, sure, but if I'm having a bad day and I'm stressed out and can't take it anymore,of I go to McDonald's for some "quarter pounder" comfort. It makes me feel like a total junkie for sure. :)